12.08.2014

never

need nothing
want everything

always

want nothing
need everything

scrap metal

dissolved to time yet to take us to the place we know we will know us as us, us as we are

they've got it figured out

broken telepathic kids tell stories of what we never did

amount

no yes, no no
only space

will there be

go on until there wakes someplace other than the dream while sitting up for anything, down for anything but the to-and-fro of this absent security saving itself from knowing itself

the truth

there is no way but up, down, forward and backward because that will always be the escape we find inconsistently extended to steady now up, now down, now backward, now forward

inside-outside

wait never knowing that never known place where dream flings bright sky together broken but warm

wish we were us

this is what we will do:
turn to no one, turn off
the night, keep going
nowhere for the sake
of this comfort of
now's remoteness

shake them

cheer up absent friend
hold them inside in place
in place of their being there

the long road

stationary vibration
salvation nation
flippant disguise me so i know how to not exist while always existing for Nothing's sake alone

waste of want


the no home come home where home of us dad
to fall in place with what could have been never asked
artificial laughter of the going nowhere but knowing you can't stay
cares come clean to themselves as emotionally absent,
while the word stops turning inside the night sky

12.07.2014

AMERICA'S BILLIONAIRE MUSEUMS

grains
hats
beds
misguided circumstances
reveling beneath sky
belief in recall
future present
holding OK
feeling OK
just OK

all of us now

coffee simple tree

sentiment

cold hands
cold weather
warm thoughts
of us and
you&I

spirit

water
drinking
water

11.17.2014

waiting for no moment

sick stomach calm calm wakeful wakeful wait

11.15.2014

missed

sleep till the wakefulness
awake, but wanting sleep
after a walk with my old
friend me.  I cannot wait
to see you you who relieve me you who will always be

what were we ever

6.21.2011

overheard tavern

saying like
you are not
saying
but

you are

saying so
charmingly
dismissive

11.13.2014

hear me out

I wait will I wait sad do I know sadness ever or is the next best thing a sort of sadness itself.
I want to escape all that there is or ever will be without notice.  Just gone out of everything
that is and isn't.  I never knew anything else.  This is all I know.  You too.  You also will be
with me in our desire for this escape, you who almost knows it too now, now it dawns on
you completely, that the only thing that ever was real was our desire to escape all reality.

11.10.2014

sanctuary salvation

wait

we will go

he holds what we need and says:

lets get going

airport

you know

11.08.2014

we go out for this on a friday I name thursday

wait? no.  we will never wait for the the joy that was always there for us 

please

friend

11.07.2014

don't dismiss


 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you

With what can't be done

The dead leafs never stop blowing by

A math problem that makes your mind break

11.06.2014

an apartment

selective seeing.

select my being ok whith our leaving.

holding feeling.  feeling feelings, feelings
we cannot even muster saying how we're seeing our feelings pass.

as they pass they believe with a belief we will never know that they know in their purity of no self knowing.

the feelings of these words know what they mean before we know them as they never will be but to themselves they know how we're feeling.

do you ever know how you're feeling? 

will you ever really know how you felt now as you're reading? or hearing?

this, as this is, as this is simply this, it fills up what we will know as

us

climb

be me
be me going.

be me
going on

&on&on

going on in a way we know better
better as being

the way out

the way outside is easy, it's so easy it
fills us with the knowledge of us as us

Ben Luton

cold comfort, co
ming to mea
ning

many. many.
there are many here, hearing me type, say, sa
ying many.

I hold you, you who were, you who were here that wa
s never here, who will never be here, he
re with my friend
my fri
end

who I kno
w is my
friend.

he is my friend.

he who hold me he
re
in
hi
s home, his home where h
e holds me apart of not knowing we know what w
e were mea
nt to be. he who ho
ld
s me
kn
ow
in
g me not as I was
wh
en I las
t held his comp
any,
his com
pany held me me as it was when we knew me
bette
r th
an
where we ar
e, wh
ere w
e ar
e go
ing

11.05.2014

Were any of them really mine

New York nights are best left to chance
Plans don't exist here, daytime either
Night never ends unless you're left
With no more friends, friends
Never had holding hands
Turning in a circle
Singing in a circle:
'We wish you would get somewhere

Then we would meet you there'

Nothing Better To Do

Palm tree

10.30.2014

excitement of the new season's love of your new laxative

fast feeling. fast feeling. fast feeling. fast, fast feeling.

this is fast. my god, my god how fast. my god how fast
this feels, how fast this feels out feeling out feelings never felt.
my father. my god. my father, how fast! how fast the ghost river goes!
how fast it goes, with a clitter clack! with a clitter clack it cracks bad friends
to me to me it cracks with a clitter clack bad friends to better me by the being
better to me outside of busy.  too busy to be slothful slothfully with me we are
together singing: Never will we be slothful! together, slothful, together, bad and
good friends, past present not present and future friends, all, all slothful, together,
in chorus, together, warmed by togetherness, the togetherness of our privilege
to be, to be, our privilege to be slothful filling us with slow joy, slow joy of
fast dancing, fast dancing to fill out forms we never will fill out for jobs
we will never need. we will never need a job or work or wakefulness
or sleep or slothfulness or sleep or rallying together we dance
night to day we dance, how we dance knowing we will
never know what makes us dance so slothfully fast
feasting upon the light of our sparked hopes,
our highest hopes we would otherwise
be embarrassed to say, embarrassed
to say that we hope such high hopes
holding onto our highest hopes
sharing them unashamed
while we dance,
dancing, we
sing

we sing
we sing
we sing while dancing along with this song of hope fulfillment
our dad arrives and we slow to the sound of his cop shows. we slow! we slow
to the gentle gilded aura of his cop shows sheen.  his cop show shows us
what is wrong with all of us as our green beans boil, boil to the perfect
sound of changing channels, changing the channel to ask what boats
appear to disappear to the sound of what made them possible, the
cold calling, the warm calling, the real estate and construction
jobs that made boats escapes possible for a lack of costume.

forgotten

You are you are that are with me
I am I am that am with you

Cold hold tight night's
Held warmth day

Believe me, I
Will be
Home

oh good

I can look at pictures
I can look at myself,

with long forgotten
dreams of places
we never knew
existed because
they never did
and never will

the order is
dismissed
regularly
now we
know I
never
was
better than
I was now.

I can hold on
I can hold onto
my phone, and
what we might
be we being me
and me with an
an an unknown
you seeking me
to find me looking
good being good being
prosperous in now now
now we know you don't
exist otherwise than my
needing another day another
moment of now replacing now

upbeat
upbeat song

sad song solo song
that fills feeling content
in feeling feelings for a
change looking for change
feeling the inside of practical
pockets

you know
you know me

you know.

like,
like us
like me

I like you
who turns
away from
beds left unmade in the daylight to return to unmade in the night


it's a combination of things, it's the belief in alarm clocks sounds
I don't know better than my knowledge of now there here you
go

10.29.2014

two words (collaboration w/ jennifergrimyser.com)


i'll start
secondary start
think now
minute moment
never thinks
begin began
best becoming
new thingy
successful enough
plenty possible
done upward
good one
better two
too double
about how
who almost
relax attacks 
light pile
of going
active both
going off
somewhat some
delicious treats
take come
back some

follow down
up spun

extreme between
instances mosaic
partitioned consequence
two nows 
never not
dreamt exempt

Acceptance Answers

Tropical rain dresses to impress upon us a lady we can all rely on.
Darts
Darts
Darts

Hey dad how can we surmount sad driftings?
Hey dad why can't we always feel the peace

Of big clear couch and comfy big screen

Movements slowed to lessening natural
Need
Need

Need Nothing's presence

SO BAD,
so bad that it's
Good to have
This lazy chair
After cleaning

Responses and no reply
Falls
Falling
Great Falls.

Calm accepting
Of everything always

That's all
Fourtunate
Perfect all
Natural

Acceptance action

10.23.2014

we used to wait for us

tolerance
stance
dance
of us
in a

morning moment
free of money
structures

architects
forgiven
by us
after

our sarcastic dance
to the practical
overtaking
beauty

in buildings
in peoples
in hopes
in day

time
we
were
us

are you through pretending

A life that we can live
skipping singing
people save
places

that would otherwise
make us go mad
without our

talking
touch

10.22.2014

able acceptance of error

Quick! Let go ten thousand times
Release all that we are
Stay good,
Say well,
It was.

Fruitful singularity

Hope in emptiness
The cold comes
The warm
Goes

10.19.2014

Ten fingers

Layabout wasting never nowhere arrival to the thought of potential touch scheduled into hopeful dreaming of a place made home and face made known better than a song on repeat visits hopeful

10.15.2014

Goofy

This is a drawing
I'm making it now
Immaterials, tools,
Foremen and a Contract

Lets see how it turns out
And if you like it it's split
With my dealer of me and it

Tenement castle

Calm display moments away for fruitful change given to escaping in books
Asking for escape except if accepted into an arts master mind

Sad cats in top hats with glitter pizza party goers forgiving who you can't forgive for you.

Low light rain awaits

I've grown
I know
The aesthetic
roaches&rats
sirens&super
egos Lying,
and waiting
Have

I know peacefulness
Answers any moment's

Call even when phone call
Isn't answered. I do not

Know an answer but find
Comfort in not knowing

What was the question

10.03.2014

I fell asleep on a train I didn't take

To work it out
To work something out
To have something to work out
To only be able to wait

Hear
To be seen
To be known
To just go

To be on a train
To be in a chair

To not change,
Yet change.

To being
To friends who
Answer questions
With a yes no or pause

To dreams awake
To wakefulness
To make to
Do with
What
To

Do
With                  Out
Doors

By your.            Side

10.01.2014

I helped someone out I feel so good about it!

Joy stop quick! Slow down relax,
Hold off quick come down depicts

Nope.

Awaiting another example of good

Funk.

9.28.2014

VIRGINIA

Do

You


Now
Is
New


Science
Personified


Hope
Maintenance

9.25.2014

There Is No Random

The sorrow of phones,
The calm of coffee,
Gratitude for the
Past, that now
We are in
Paris
Pretending

To not wipe away the
Rain, to not weep for
The wind, to hold on
And come home for
The abstract abc we
Clean out an array
Of colors random

Sized random
Drops picked
Up to plateau

Against reason

Again believing

That we may never again know happy
At the happy cost of never again knowing
Sad, obscured by the difference between not
To care not
Caring &
Having
No cares

But always being in This World


9.24.2014

Please hold on

I'm

You're

We're

Doing

So

Well

9.23.2014

Me Me

I like to set deadlines for myself



Funny picture



Because I don't care if I meet them

9.17.2014

please bother

brother me fathers
mother me farther
than that that isnt
a thing that is not
anything, but joy.

somewhere three

thank you you who is
willing to be with me

but will will be good

to me from you I ask
this that's enough, us

option limit

happy come closer than screen between us

I know less and less, and do less and less

I hold up what I can have, option limit

9.14.2014

Oh

Full of essence of water of downpour of the next rain's question answered with will we umbrella

9.11.2014

Gala

This is the morning late excitement easy going wait till meeting for the future of always such quick staying relief release. Let's get back to each other. That we can do that that connects distance and promises closeness ideas bouncing. Hold on, hold on to time's temperament you have control over a day's structure to loose it to begin the next same, different, keeping what softly works.  Out about you.

9.09.2014

broke but not broken

girl



friend



faces
the



brook

tennis ball

forgave now
forgives
past

beautiful country road

what was doing math

instrumental track

my GOD









christ,

can you believe this?

baseball, remember baseball

I can just be the essence of what wait's for.
love physical education/classy underground

stupid dope upcoming clearance attention hope



GUSH



seventy one

the same old hat we never found

belief
be
relief
of
clever
nevers

hold so hard the calm you can now have

ice cream calm nextoor
calling us to come clean

faithfully listening to rest
;and what it creates, achievement of nothingness shared

sensually calm drive

me

into

every
thing we
ever need
want we
have in
now's
now.


the salvation caused by anticipation of unknown conversations

pleas
p

l

e

a

s

e

9.04.2014

new trends

waiting with/
self, full
loss

of self,
come back/
today is only

everything,
all ways/
lead to

now, don't
forget Nows
in not thought

9.01.2014

Guitar Solo

Rise,

The heat,
The
Here-Now
Known
Now

Opens to you
Eventual you

8.30.2014

Where are you're friends now

No!
I didn't
Want to
Waste my

Frittata!

It was delicious!!

8.28.2014

Shared sanctuary

Acceptance pure calm display,
Serene, sounds new, comfort
Mind unwind, trust in time.

8.26.2014

dig

continued now
focused calmly
on now rythem

deer

fashion salad
science. turn
ing & tasting

hue of clear transition
sky to night. Buck 65
Stinkin' Rich, twelve
hundred hobos, joy
/almost unbearable
sensing of positive
guidance all in all
has to offer, deer

build, ride

this rock
this music
foundation
for m'mind
supply now
are Enough

8.25.2014

Backwoods



House music
Home food



Promise

Read what waits to be written

Reach

Kill You Are Self

8.23.2014

no nature

this is the poem between when

song starts

8.22.2014

No doubts

when I am
By myself

I am my
Self, so

Self is
With

No one
Else, I
Am

Without
Future

Presence
In our

Distant
Now

The space between what came and what comes

8.19.2014

Arrive

Bling figure future,
Bling as the song might sing)

I've got where joy creeps in family,
Held tight compete moment)

Joy, rise up out of ash out of
Bed out of supply in, to rely


Austere

Quiet loud sounds ordered for me
There is taste and achieving now

Deep upward moved by not me
Felt complete expression of a

Personality known complete

8.18.2014

august

accept
good
for
you

we people

turn here now,
fill in now with
now new the new now

we know

welcome back now

moment of new amount
filling the wait with amount of recalled connection
 and uplift soon
we will be laughing
in a moment
of promise, the key,
 is clear

to this is an amount of feeling poured till now's
new feeling what is given and taken and passed
to clean acceptance, clear waters recalled and exchanged, hope, promise,
the continued trust in now, knowing now this is new is always out
there we will be there we are

now close, now far, now known
 to know now I come to clear

8.16.2014

Turn here then

This is the poem I didn't want to pick up but am that I am glad in me that iam now open less and more aware of it all now, return to epic later, caretaker will take care of what stops sincere connection and supply.

8.14.2014

Conditioned mind

Morning perfection poem
Mood stabilizes joy of  all possible
Performing ordered freedom
In everyday places I
Cherish, thank
The day
Yet!

8.13.2014

Mature men

Serenity slow known.

Wind. It's ok to talk about the specifics of wind.

They hold me close, move me through now stretches now.

That, with them, I can elongate the space of now.

All day to day to night now open in a long thank their correction
Of effect, of their causes expression alone unflawing
Into then, siblings scratching on never satisfied.

We relied on them then, then there we will

Be again.

How known Now

Milk
Upright
Up all night
Alright in a way
We sing of love from
A calm given by giving up
Giving a thank you not needing
And receiving a place of hope in him.

Brother, my brother,
Be kind and wait,
Wait kindly
For our age
To be
The
Same.
Ashamed,
Still
I Praise
I praise
The
Us in
The
Same
Place
Time
I praise
I Praise
The
Then
Sane
Paid
Times
Ahead
I hope
For I
Hope

For
Forgiveness
For your giving
Your giving that
I stole slothfuly.

And receiving a place of hope in him.
Giving a thank you not needing
A calm given by giving up
We sing of love from
Alright in a way
Up all night
Upright
Milk










8.12.2014

It's All Right

No need
To call,

No need
To write

8.10.2014

Hold off held on

Word
Home no house
Screen,
No feet
But my own
That need,
That need utility
From
This pillar of the abstraction
Of work's ethics

Celebration

This know no comfort I want to make, make sure
,
Made sure of myself to go,
Pray I
Am returned
Pray
Here
Pray faster freer going directionless love is nothing's most prized reward.

Gift?
Gifted.
Held up,
Danced

Addicted to
Dance unsexualized
Addict of the word
Tapped
A sound
Way off
From
Wooded
Wooden
Houses
Homes

Collection instead
Out of what was

Prides death cry

Return over in bed

Beauty elusive come at my command
I don't know past fifteen me
I have it, lose it come

Home?
Where I am I know nothing
And even that can't comfort.

Come closer future, fill me with what I want
Not what we should


8.07.2014

Hand held

Renee,
Fast calm
Connect,
Question

Adult me

Did dusk
Warm
You

As in
Was
We

Bettered
To time

Yet

8.06.2014

Heaven

Hello
Hello
Hello

What done

Looking past time's space
There's only places pace

Will




Money



Help



Bodies




Trust in Time in Tent

Sleep's meaning the space of out of time entering now, same space worries don't exist in accepting Hope's ever preset Then

8.05.2014

Rehearsal space right side up

Create post
Multifaceted
Colours tall

Escape not as much as move quiet,
Away from angers sifter above us.

I recline sun of me on me about
You near us in a better word
Than digitally. This is
You me us that
Am that

8.04.2014

Stop

Some piece

Look back with care free carelessly cautious never be correct me
Correct
Correction
This is better than me

Video bed

Yo,
Leave me you
Leave you please me
You can only take in real
Can't let it lose what it made me

Commiserate

Felt fast
Fell slow
Felt up
No
Go

Eight hundred dollars

Intake esc
ape simple
 up simp
le down
 c
an't change
me c
having
heartfelt witho
ut I am th
at am
 I able