6.18.2015

Reclaim

Wether we will or will we not as it is go.

Numerology, illuminati, train-stoppers.

We all go together two by three,
Cling to reach our light commupance,
Legit once-was-us, hell, hold away

From the flame
Sights seeing

6.17.2015

backwards

baseball hat

5.13.2015

Conclusions

This French shit man man they know they know how it's done.




What? No, I know better yeah yeah this track here

Melodé

Hey hell now never mind.
I knew you of you years ago.
Fuck you. Hell I never thought

5.08.2015

Some feeling

Held heaven closed down storefront home
Hell, give me a week.

What right do you hold in in-correction
Hell what do you and I know of us?

5.02.2015

Matured trees' belief in the breeze
Hallways of correspondents leave

4.27.2015

Stonework

The first time you take in rightly
You turn up &you
See uniformity in a color,
Cry a lessening sadness, a
Growing clear of down,
A steady serene
Stonework


3.27.2015

i really

Hey there kids
We should be singing not writing
Hey there kids
What do we want for what we are
Hey,
Kids,
Slow down kids, lay low
We know you know

3.25.2015

slaw

Slaw
Cheap thrills that cost a lot

Buxom brutish beauties studying psychoanalysis

A brand new sigh balloon that doesn't sync up with your blue tooth device despite prayer
Slaw

3.24.2015

us not me

Cash take and be close to us holding us.
I know these days and forget not me.

Our door light low and high and
The between you maintained you
Happy you you as real as the
Beer triumphs the

10,000th thing
Out of us
Not me



the only day

Feel the good money thoughts slow
This news, all news, all hours in today

2.24.2015

failure

Cold belly
Warm body
Otherwise

2.20.2015

Lies I've Told Myself


Lies I've told myself

Places of truth,
Of clean clarity to
Be in, taken
In soberly drinking
Clams clarity
Of what comes

Slow & clear

The urge to express
The needs falling
In place

Of all hope
Of places of calm
Of transit, to go

To be

In ideas and tombs
Of comforting thought


We reach together
Like the dead;
We take them
In, give them
Homes in us,
             Mastering
Their flow from
Us, getting at
Our same always
Goal of safe
Sense, somber
Joy, contained
In living tomes:
    In sound
    In word        & image
Movement       & interaction
With us        Apart &
Together


Lies I've told myself

Vanity's dream world.

Of knowing no opportunity
Is ever missed;
Only the movement of
Now Is New.

Here is where we
Are & will never
Be without a here
Until the hereafter

Now being
All we know
Being now






2.13.2015

hope of fell flat

We feel light
In our head
We ask:
Will I be
Full forevermore ever?

I've personally never asked that
Of anyone.
 Are you kidding?
Who am I to ask anyone anything ever.
   I hold my hand on my head
& lean
        Never having
Worry 'bout people's flaking off of taking
                                               Care of
Each one an other

2.11.2015

theyre wrong if they don't like you

To go to to go on and on to turn to you who know no one but see me few far flung between you and I and us

edward

What became becomes us
Re-muddles then clears us us
As we are
Us as us us
As we will be
Be this that remembers me

1.24.2015

improvisational bartender

Godblessit
Godblessyou

1.23.2015

subvergence

And that is that
And this is better than that

It's just this this
That is that that that is that

1.12.2015

The late 60s

I sit huddled
Buzzing
Singing
Along

As I turn inside-out thinking
Of the possibilities of blanket

Disappointed People
Tired of hanging
Outside in the
Cold comfort,
Sentimentally
Singing distance
Knowing there
Hasn't been
Distance
Since

The late 1960s

12.21.2014

two brothers apart

I hold on
that's what they say I should do

get things done.
make a list.
commit.
they say that too.
read. write. make and celebrate sad together
get nothing done
write no list
&never
commit

with us, for us and through us

the inner circle

yet to be
there you don't have
it will fulfil
forgiveness

to help the poor
to love the poor
to be poor
to not want need

together we band together making sure all who are with us are self reliant
giving nothing unless we also give resentment and why would we want it

any other way?

12.20.2014

ancient roman standard

arrive.
arrive.

arrive to a lack of all things and non things and people lack, people lack it but have hope.

what is hope? do they have it?  will I steal it from their eyes?

in its absence I feel invincible, slow, steady, assured and accepting all.

that there may never be true hope, that 'abandon all hope ye who enter here' may have no meaning yet.

we don't care.  look about yourself, look hard, look close:  no one knows what a care ever was but know now that they may never be whole lest they get that last drink, lest they get that never kiss,
hoping slow
that someone they meet will open their arms and call them,

calling:

come here to me! I want you, you for all you will ever be or fail to be,
it is only the stretching of now that matters and now I call to you,
open armed, full of endless happy hopes to be fulfilled
imagine me imperfect in a mess of sheets whispering your
name after I know you've left to spread your abilities over the earth

we sit slow, fill what we have, anxiously anticipating its inevitable lack,

yet we somehow have homes and ways to relax.


what I will accept

gradually it leaves me
I hold each drop as it
cool beneath me it passes
we feel things, we know things,
and it calms, it calms us late night
lacking into a slow silent sad singing
singing for hope abundant refreshed, or
no hope, free of hopes chance failure,
and with it a cool comfort in what
is or isn't now.  now I know we
have a place to go to, a place
in people a place in bread
a place to wear down
our weary heart bed

I know no there is no one to be in here now to hold to
and dreams wait to swim off

and the inevitable breeze of the future path keeps me
steadily accepting rationing waiting correct,

no remorse.
no reason for remorse

12.10.2014

i owe jeff koons around three hundred dollars

12.08.2014

never

need nothing
want everything

always

want nothing
need everything

scrap metal

dissolved to time yet to take us to the place we know we will know us as us, us as we are

they've got it figured out

broken telepathic kids tell stories of what we never did

amount

no yes, no no
only space

will there be

go on until there wakes someplace other than the dream while sitting up for anything, down for anything but the to-and-fro of this absent security saving itself from knowing itself

the truth

there is no way but up, down, forward and backward because that will always be the escape we find inconsistently extended to steady now up, now down, now backward, now forward

inside-outside

wait never knowing that never known place where dream flings bright sky together broken but warm

wish we were us

this is what we will do:
turn to no one, turn off
the night, keep going
nowhere for the sake
of this comfort of
now's remoteness

shake them

cheer up absent friend
hold them inside in place
in place of their being there

the long road

stationary vibration
salvation nation
flippant disguise me so i know how to not exist while always existing for Nothing's sake alone

waste of want


the no home come home where home of us dad
to fall in place with what could have been never asked
artificial laughter of the going nowhere but knowing you can't stay
cares come clean to themselves as emotionally absent,
while the word stops turning inside the night sky

12.07.2014

AMERICA'S BILLIONAIRE MUSEUMS

grains
hats
beds
misguided circumstances
reveling beneath sky
belief in recall
future present
holding OK
feeling OK
just OK

all of us now

coffee simple tree

sentiment

cold hands
cold weather
warm thoughts
of us and
you&I

spirit

water
drinking
water

11.17.2014

waiting for no moment

sick stomach calm calm wakeful wakeful wait

11.15.2014

missed

sleep till the wakefulness
awake, but wanting sleep
after a walk with my old
friend me.  I cannot wait
to see you you who relieve me you who will always be

what were we ever

6.21.2011

overheard tavern

saying like
you are not
saying
but

you are

saying so
charmingly
dismissive

11.13.2014

hear me out

I wait will I wait sad do I know sadness ever or is the next best thing a sort of sadness itself.
I want to escape all that there is or ever will be without notice.  Just gone out of everything
that is and isn't.  I never knew anything else.  This is all I know.  You too.  You also will be
with me in our desire for this escape, you who almost knows it too now, now it dawns on
you completely, that the only thing that ever was real was our desire to escape all reality.

11.10.2014

sanctuary salvation

wait

we will go

he holds what we need and says:

lets get going

airport

you know

11.08.2014

we go out for this on a friday I name thursday

wait? no.  we will never wait for the the joy that was always there for us 

please

friend

11.07.2014

don't dismiss


 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you
 thank you

With what can't be done

The dead leafs never stop blowing by

A math problem that makes your mind break

11.06.2014

an apartment

selective seeing.

select my being ok whith our leaving.

holding feeling.  feeling feelings, feelings
we cannot even muster saying how we're seeing our feelings pass.

as they pass they believe with a belief we will never know that they know in their purity of no self knowing.

the feelings of these words know what they mean before we know them as they never will be but to themselves they know how we're feeling.

do you ever know how you're feeling? 

will you ever really know how you felt now as you're reading? or hearing?

this, as this is, as this is simply this, it fills up what we will know as

us

climb

be me
be me going.

be me
going on

&on&on

going on in a way we know better
better as being

the way out

the way outside is easy, it's so easy it
fills us with the knowledge of us as us

Ben Luton

cold comfort, co
ming to mea
ning

many. many.
there are many here, hearing me type, say, sa
ying many.

I hold you, you who were, you who were here that wa
s never here, who will never be here, he
re with my friend
my fri
end

who I kno
w is my
friend.

he is my friend.

he who hold me he
re
in
hi
s home, his home where h
e holds me apart of not knowing we know what w
e were mea
nt to be. he who ho
ld
s me
kn
ow
in
g me not as I was
wh
en I las
t held his comp
any,
his com
pany held me me as it was when we knew me
bette
r th
an
where we ar
e, wh
ere w
e ar
e go
ing

11.05.2014

Were any of them really mine

New York nights are best left to chance
Plans don't exist here, daytime either
Night never ends unless you're left
With no more friends, friends
Never had holding hands
Turning in a circle
Singing in a circle:
'We wish you would get somewhere

Then we would meet you there'

Nothing Better To Do

Palm tree

10.30.2014

excitement of the new season's love of your new laxative

fast feeling. fast feeling. fast feeling. fast, fast feeling.

this is fast. my god, my god how fast. my god how fast
this feels, how fast this feels out feeling out feelings never felt.
my father. my god. my father, how fast! how fast the ghost river goes!
how fast it goes, with a clitter clack! with a clitter clack it cracks bad friends
to me to me it cracks with a clitter clack bad friends to better me by the being
better to me outside of busy.  too busy to be slothful slothfully with me we are
together singing: Never will we be slothful! together, slothful, together, bad and
good friends, past present not present and future friends, all, all slothful, together,
in chorus, together, warmed by togetherness, the togetherness of our privilege
to be, to be, our privilege to be slothful filling us with slow joy, slow joy of
fast dancing, fast dancing to fill out forms we never will fill out for jobs
we will never need. we will never need a job or work or wakefulness
or sleep or slothfulness or sleep or rallying together we dance
night to day we dance, how we dance knowing we will
never know what makes us dance so slothfully fast
feasting upon the light of our sparked hopes,
our highest hopes we would otherwise
be embarrassed to say, embarrassed
to say that we hope such high hopes
holding onto our highest hopes
sharing them unashamed
while we dance,
dancing, we
sing

we sing
we sing
we sing while dancing along with this song of hope fulfillment
our dad arrives and we slow to the sound of his cop shows. we slow! we slow
to the gentle gilded aura of his cop shows sheen.  his cop show shows us
what is wrong with all of us as our green beans boil, boil to the perfect
sound of changing channels, changing the channel to ask what boats
appear to disappear to the sound of what made them possible, the
cold calling, the warm calling, the real estate and construction
jobs that made boats escapes possible for a lack of costume.

forgotten

You are you are that are with me
I am I am that am with you

Cold hold tight night's
Held warmth day

Believe me, I
Will be
Home

oh good

I can look at pictures
I can look at myself,

with long forgotten
dreams of places
we never knew
existed because
they never did
and never will

the order is
dismissed
regularly
now we
know I
never
was
better than
I was now.

I can hold on
I can hold onto
my phone, and
what we might
be we being me
and me with an
an an unknown
you seeking me
to find me looking
good being good being
prosperous in now now
now we know you don't
exist otherwise than my
needing another day another
moment of now replacing now

upbeat
upbeat song

sad song solo song
that fills feeling content
in feeling feelings for a
change looking for change
feeling the inside of practical
pockets

you know
you know me

you know.

like,
like us
like me

I like you
who turns
away from
beds left unmade in the daylight to return to unmade in the night


it's a combination of things, it's the belief in alarm clocks sounds
I don't know better than my knowledge of now there here you
go

10.29.2014

two words (collaboration w/ jennifergrimyser.com)


i'll start
secondary start
think now
minute moment
never thinks
begin began
best becoming
new thingy
successful enough
plenty possible
done upward
good one
better two
too double
about how
who almost
relax attacks 
light pile
of going
active both
going off
somewhat some
delicious treats
take come
back some

follow down
up spun

extreme between
instances mosaic
partitioned consequence
two nows 
never not
dreamt exempt

Acceptance Answers

Tropical rain dresses to impress upon us a lady we can all rely on.
Darts
Darts
Darts

Hey dad how can we surmount sad driftings?
Hey dad why can't we always feel the peace

Of big clear couch and comfy big screen

Movements slowed to lessening natural
Need
Need

Need Nothing's presence

SO BAD,
so bad that it's
Good to have
This lazy chair
After cleaning

Responses and no reply
Falls
Falling
Great Falls.

Calm accepting
Of everything always

That's all
Fourtunate
Perfect all
Natural

Acceptance action

10.23.2014

we used to wait for us

tolerance
stance
dance
of us
in a

morning moment
free of money
structures

architects
forgiven
by us
after

our sarcastic dance
to the practical
overtaking
beauty

in buildings
in peoples
in hopes
in day

time
we
were
us

are you through pretending

A life that we can live
skipping singing
people save
places

that would otherwise
make us go mad
without our

talking
touch

10.22.2014

able acceptance of error

Quick! Let go ten thousand times
Release all that we are
Stay good,
Say well,
It was.

Fruitful singularity

Hope in emptiness
The cold comes
The warm
Goes

10.19.2014

Ten fingers

Layabout wasting never nowhere arrival to the thought of potential touch scheduled into hopeful dreaming of a place made home and face made known better than a song on repeat visits hopeful

10.15.2014

Goofy

This is a drawing
I'm making it now
Immaterials, tools,
Foremen and a Contract

Lets see how it turns out
And if you like it it's split
With my dealer of me and it

Tenement castle

Calm display moments away for fruitful change given to escaping in books
Asking for escape except if accepted into an arts master mind

Sad cats in top hats with glitter pizza party goers forgiving who you can't forgive for you.

Low light rain awaits

I've grown
I know
The aesthetic
roaches&rats
sirens&super
egos Lying,
and waiting
Have

I know peacefulness
Answers any moment's

Call even when phone call
Isn't answered. I do not

Know an answer but find
Comfort in not knowing

What was the question

10.03.2014

I fell asleep on a train I didn't take

To work it out
To work something out
To have something to work out
To only be able to wait

Hear
To be seen
To be known
To just go

To be on a train
To be in a chair

To not change,
Yet change.

To being
To friends who
Answer questions
With a yes no or pause

To dreams awake
To wakefulness
To make to
Do with
What
To

Do
With                  Out
Doors

By your.            Side

10.01.2014

I helped someone out I feel so good about it!

Joy stop quick! Slow down relax,
Hold off quick come down depicts

Nope.

Awaiting another example of good

Funk.

9.28.2014

VIRGINIA

Do

You


Now
Is
New


Science
Personified


Hope
Maintenance

9.25.2014

There Is No Random

The sorrow of phones,
The calm of coffee,
Gratitude for the
Past, that now
We are in
Paris
Pretending

To not wipe away the
Rain, to not weep for
The wind, to hold on
And come home for
The abstract abc we
Clean out an array
Of colors random

Sized random
Drops picked
Up to plateau

Against reason

Again believing

That we may never again know happy
At the happy cost of never again knowing
Sad, obscured by the difference between not
To care not
Caring &
Having
No cares

But always being in This World


9.24.2014

Please hold on

I'm

You're

We're

Doing

So

Well

9.23.2014

Me Me

I like to set deadlines for myself



Funny picture



Because I don't care if I meet them

9.17.2014

please bother

brother me fathers
mother me farther
than that that isnt
a thing that is not
anything, but joy.

somewhere three

thank you you who is
willing to be with me

but will will be good

to me from you I ask
this that's enough, us

option limit

happy come closer than screen between us

I know less and less, and do less and less

I hold up what I can have, option limit

9.14.2014

Oh

Full of essence of water of downpour of the next rain's question answered with will we umbrella

9.11.2014

Gala

This is the morning late excitement easy going wait till meeting for the future of always such quick staying relief release. Let's get back to each other. That we can do that that connects distance and promises closeness ideas bouncing. Hold on, hold on to time's temperament you have control over a day's structure to loose it to begin the next same, different, keeping what softly works.  Out about you.

9.09.2014

broke but not broken

girl



friend



faces
the



brook

tennis ball

forgave now
forgives
past

beautiful country road

what was doing math

instrumental track

my GOD









christ,

can you believe this?

baseball, remember baseball

I can just be the essence of what wait's for.
love physical education/classy underground

stupid dope upcoming clearance attention hope



GUSH



seventy one

the same old hat we never found

belief
be
relief
of
clever
nevers

hold so hard the calm you can now have

ice cream calm nextoor
calling us to come clean

faithfully listening to rest
;and what it creates, achievement of nothingness shared

sensually calm drive

me

into

every
thing we
ever need
want we
have in
now's
now.


the salvation caused by anticipation of unknown conversations

pleas
p

l

e

a

s

e

9.04.2014

new trends

waiting with/
self, full
loss

of self,
come back/
today is only

everything,
all ways/
lead to

now, don't
forget Nows
in not thought

9.01.2014

Guitar Solo

Rise,

The heat,
The
Here-Now
Known
Now

Opens to you
Eventual you

8.30.2014

Where are you're friends now

No!
I didn't
Want to
Waste my

Frittata!

It was delicious!!

8.28.2014

Shared sanctuary

Acceptance pure calm display,
Serene, sounds new, comfort
Mind unwind, trust in time.

8.26.2014

dig

continued now
focused calmly
on now rythem

deer

fashion salad
science. turn
ing & tasting

hue of clear transition
sky to night. Buck 65
Stinkin' Rich, twelve
hundred hobos, joy
/almost unbearable
sensing of positive
guidance all in all
has to offer, deer

build, ride

this rock
this music
foundation
for m'mind
supply now
are Enough

8.25.2014

Backwoods



House music
Home food



Promise

Read what waits to be written

Reach

Kill You Are Self

8.23.2014

no nature

this is the poem between when

song starts

8.22.2014

No doubts

when I am
By myself

I am my
Self, so

Self is
With

No one
Else, I
Am

Without
Future

Presence
In our

Distant
Now

The space between what came and what comes

8.19.2014

Arrive

Bling figure future,
Bling as the song might sing)

I've got where joy creeps in family,
Held tight compete moment)

Joy, rise up out of ash out of
Bed out of supply in, to rely