11.17.2014
11.15.2014
missed
sleep till the wakefulness
awake, but wanting sleep
after a walk with my old
friend me. I cannot wait
to see you you who relieve me you who will always be
awake, but wanting sleep
after a walk with my old
friend me. I cannot wait
to see you you who relieve me you who will always be
11.13.2014
hear me out
I wait will I wait sad do I know sadness ever or is the next best thing a sort of sadness itself.
I want to escape all that there is or ever will be without notice. Just gone out of everything
that is and isn't. I never knew anything else. This is all I know. You too. You also will be
with me in our desire for this escape, you who almost knows it too now, now it dawns on
you completely, that the only thing that ever was real was our desire to escape all reality.
I want to escape all that there is or ever will be without notice. Just gone out of everything
that is and isn't. I never knew anything else. This is all I know. You too. You also will be
with me in our desire for this escape, you who almost knows it too now, now it dawns on
you completely, that the only thing that ever was real was our desire to escape all reality.
11.10.2014
11.08.2014
we go out for this on a friday I name thursday
wait? no. we will never wait for the the joy that was always there for us
11.07.2014
don't dismiss
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
With what can't be done
The dead leafs never stop blowing by
A math problem that makes your mind break
A math problem that makes your mind break
11.06.2014
an apartment
selective seeing.
select my being ok whith our leaving.
holding feeling. feeling feelings, feelings
we cannot even muster saying how we're seeing our feelings pass.
as they pass they believe with a belief we will never know that they know in their purity of no self knowing.
the feelings of these words know what they mean before we know them as they never will be but to themselves they know how we're feeling.
do you ever know how you're feeling?
will you ever really know how you felt now as you're reading? or hearing?
this, as this is, as this is simply this, it fills up what we will know as
us
select my being ok whith our leaving.
holding feeling. feeling feelings, feelings
we cannot even muster saying how we're seeing our feelings pass.
as they pass they believe with a belief we will never know that they know in their purity of no self knowing.
the feelings of these words know what they mean before we know them as they never will be but to themselves they know how we're feeling.
do you ever know how you're feeling?
will you ever really know how you felt now as you're reading? or hearing?
this, as this is, as this is simply this, it fills up what we will know as
us
climb
be me
be me going.
be me
going on
&on&on
going on in a way we know better
better as being
the way out
the way outside is easy, it's so easy it
fills us with the knowledge of us as us
be me going.
be me
going on
&on&on
going on in a way we know better
better as being
the way out
the way outside is easy, it's so easy it
fills us with the knowledge of us as us
Ben Luton
cold comfort, co
ming to mea
ning
many. many.
there are many here, hearing me type, say, sa
ying many.
I hold you, you who were, you who were here that wa
s never here, who will never be here, he
re with my friend
my fri
end
who I kno
w is my
friend.
he is my friend.
he who hold me he
re
in
hi
s home, his home where h
e holds me apart of not knowing we know what w
e were mea
nt to be. he who ho
ld
s me
kn
ow
in
g me not as I was
wh
en I las
t held his comp
any,
his com
pany held me me as it was when we knew me
bette
r th
an
where we ar
e, wh
ere w
e ar
e go
ing
ming to mea
ning
many. many.
there are many here, hearing me type, say, sa
ying many.
I hold you, you who were, you who were here that wa
s never here, who will never be here, he
re with my friend
my fri
end
who I kno
w is my
friend.
he is my friend.
he who hold me he
re
in
hi
s home, his home where h
e holds me apart of not knowing we know what w
e were mea
nt to be. he who ho
ld
s me
kn
ow
in
g me not as I was
wh
en I las
t held his comp
any,
his com
pany held me me as it was when we knew me
bette
r th
an
where we ar
e, wh
ere w
e ar
e go
ing
11.05.2014
Were any of them really mine
New York nights are best left to chance
Plans don't exist here, daytime either
Night never ends unless you're left
With no more friends, friends
Never had holding hands
Turning in a circle
Singing in a circle:
'We wish you would get somewhere
Then we would meet you there'
Plans don't exist here, daytime either
Night never ends unless you're left
With no more friends, friends
Never had holding hands
Turning in a circle
Singing in a circle:
'We wish you would get somewhere
Then we would meet you there'
10.30.2014
excitement of the new season's love of your new laxative
fast feeling. fast feeling. fast feeling. fast, fast feeling.
this is fast. my god, my god how fast. my god how fast
this feels, how fast this feels out feeling out feelings never felt.
my father. my god. my father, how fast! how fast the ghost river goes!
how fast it goes, with a clitter clack! with a clitter clack it cracks bad friends
to me to me it cracks with a clitter clack bad friends to better me by the being
better to me outside of busy. too busy to be slothful slothfully with me we are
together singing: Never will we be slothful! together, slothful, together, bad and
good friends, past present not present and future friends, all, all slothful, together,
in chorus, together, warmed by togetherness, the togetherness of our privilege
to be, to be, our privilege to be slothful filling us with slow joy, slow joy of
fast dancing, fast dancing to fill out forms we never will fill out for jobs
we will never need. we will never need a job or work or wakefulness
or sleep or slothfulness or sleep or rallying together we dance
night to day we dance, how we dance knowing we will
never know what makes us dance so slothfully fast
feasting upon the light of our sparked hopes,
our highest hopes we would otherwise
be embarrassed to say, embarrassed
to say that we hope such high hopes
holding onto our highest hopes
sharing them unashamed
while we dance,
dancing, we
sing
we sing
we sing
we sing while dancing along with this song of hope fulfillment
our dad arrives and we slow to the sound of his cop shows. we slow! we slow
to the gentle gilded aura of his cop shows sheen. his cop show shows us
what is wrong with all of us as our green beans boil, boil to the perfect
sound of changing channels, changing the channel to ask what boats
appear to disappear to the sound of what made them possible, the
cold calling, the warm calling, the real estate and construction
jobs that made boats escapes possible for a lack of costume.
this is fast. my god, my god how fast. my god how fast
this feels, how fast this feels out feeling out feelings never felt.
my father. my god. my father, how fast! how fast the ghost river goes!
how fast it goes, with a clitter clack! with a clitter clack it cracks bad friends
to me to me it cracks with a clitter clack bad friends to better me by the being
better to me outside of busy. too busy to be slothful slothfully with me we are
together singing: Never will we be slothful! together, slothful, together, bad and
good friends, past present not present and future friends, all, all slothful, together,
in chorus, together, warmed by togetherness, the togetherness of our privilege
to be, to be, our privilege to be slothful filling us with slow joy, slow joy of
fast dancing, fast dancing to fill out forms we never will fill out for jobs
we will never need. we will never need a job or work or wakefulness
or sleep or slothfulness or sleep or rallying together we dance
night to day we dance, how we dance knowing we will
never know what makes us dance so slothfully fast
feasting upon the light of our sparked hopes,
our highest hopes we would otherwise
be embarrassed to say, embarrassed
to say that we hope such high hopes
holding onto our highest hopes
sharing them unashamed
while we dance,
dancing, we
sing
we sing
we sing
we sing while dancing along with this song of hope fulfillment
our dad arrives and we slow to the sound of his cop shows. we slow! we slow
to the gentle gilded aura of his cop shows sheen. his cop show shows us
what is wrong with all of us as our green beans boil, boil to the perfect
sound of changing channels, changing the channel to ask what boats
appear to disappear to the sound of what made them possible, the
cold calling, the warm calling, the real estate and construction
jobs that made boats escapes possible for a lack of costume.
forgotten
You are you are that are with me
I am I am that am with you
Cold hold tight night's
Held warmth day
Believe me, I
Will be
Home
I am I am that am with you
Cold hold tight night's
Held warmth day
Believe me, I
Will be
Home
oh good
I can look at pictures
I can look at myself,
with long forgotten
dreams of places
we never knew
existed because
they never did
and never will
the order is
dismissed
regularly
now we
know I
never
was
better than
I was now.
I can hold on
I can hold onto
my phone, and
what we might
be we being me
and me with an
an an unknown
you seeking me
to find me looking
good being good being
prosperous in now now
now we know you don't
exist otherwise than my
needing another day another
moment of now replacing now
upbeat
upbeat song
sad song solo song
that fills feeling content
in feeling feelings for a
change looking for change
feeling the inside of practical
pockets
you know
you know me
you know.
like,
like us
like me
I like you
who turns
away from
beds left unmade in the daylight to return to unmade in the night
it's a combination of things, it's the belief in alarm clocks sounds
I don't know better than my knowledge of now there here you
go
I can look at myself,
with long forgotten
dreams of places
we never knew
existed because
they never did
and never will
the order is
dismissed
regularly
now we
know I
never
was
better than
I was now.
I can hold on
I can hold onto
my phone, and
what we might
be we being me
and me with an
an an unknown
you seeking me
to find me looking
good being good being
prosperous in now now
now we know you don't
exist otherwise than my
needing another day another
moment of now replacing now
upbeat
upbeat song
sad song solo song
that fills feeling content
in feeling feelings for a
change looking for change
feeling the inside of practical
pockets
you know
you know me
you know.
like,
like us
like me
I like you
who turns
away from
beds left unmade in the daylight to return to unmade in the night
it's a combination of things, it's the belief in alarm clocks sounds
I don't know better than my knowledge of now there here you
go
10.29.2014
two words (collaboration w/ jennifergrimyser.com)
i'll start
secondary start
think now
minute moment
never thinks
begin began
best becoming
new thingy
successful enough
plenty possible
done upward
good one
better two
too double
about how
who almost
relax attacks
light pile
of going
active both
going off
back some
follow down
up spun
extreme between
instances mosaic
instances mosaic
partitioned consequence
two nows
two nows
never not
dreamt exempt
Acceptance Answers
Tropical rain dresses to impress upon us a lady we can all rely on.
Darts
Darts
Darts
Hey dad how can we surmount sad driftings?
Hey dad why can't we always feel the peace
Of big clear couch and comfy big screen
Movements slowed to lessening natural
Need
Need
Need Nothing's presence
SO BAD,
so bad that it's
Good to have
This lazy chair
After cleaning
Responses and no reply
Falls
Falling
Great Falls.
Calm accepting
Of everything always
That's all
Fourtunate
Perfect all
Natural
Acceptance action
Darts
Darts
Darts
Hey dad how can we surmount sad driftings?
Hey dad why can't we always feel the peace
Of big clear couch and comfy big screen
Movements slowed to lessening natural
Need
Need
Need Nothing's presence
SO BAD,
so bad that it's
Good to have
This lazy chair
After cleaning
Responses and no reply
Falls
Falling
Great Falls.
Calm accepting
Of everything always
That's all
Fourtunate
Perfect all
Natural
Acceptance action
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